A River Runs Through It

Growing up I remember that there was a book of my dad's on fly-fishing. It was always out somewhere. I don't ever remember my dad going fly-fishing growing up but I know he had all the equipment for it, a fairly nice pole, flys that my aunt (his sister) had made him, and even the hat. When I was in high school I learned to fly-fish in one of my classes, I even caught a fish. It was a rewarding and new experience and I wish that I had had the opportunity to do it at some time earlier in my life. I just watched A River Runs Through It for the first time, and I am surprised that I had not seen it before. I'm sure it's a movie my dad likes, so much of it reminds me of him and also of what I want my life to be like eventually. I'm not the kind of person who loves living in a city. I like it, it's fun and there are some things that are great about it, but really I want to live in the woods one day. Just be out there away from people with the trees and a river and some mountains and live. Just enjoy the parts of the world where I feel most at home. I think that's something that my dad and I have in common, although we've never really spoken about it, I think he prefers to be outside, away from people. As I've gotten older I've come to realize that I'm a lot more like him than I ever thought, but there are some things about him that I will never be like. When it comes to fly fishing though I want to do more of it, I want to be out in the woods more, I don't want to spend all my time in the city.

Green in the City

I live just across the freeway from some of the hills of Portland, where there is a strange combination of forest-like areas and large or old houses, depending. When you walk up my street and across the freeway (my apartment is very loud most of the time) there are a set of stairs going up the hill to one of the roads that has wound it's way up. Along the way up them are green things everywhere, it's a bit of an escape from being surrounded by the city for me. A couple of weeks ago I went up them and snapped some pictures. 

Autumn

I wrote tonight. It's unusual that I do any creative writing anymore. I think it helps me keep my sanity when I feel like I don't have any left. Which is how I felt. I keep thinking that one day I will finish one of the writing projects I begin, that I will create something in any art medium that I love. But it keeps not happening. School starts again tomorrow. I have classes at eight, so I should really be heading to sleep soon, but I just wanted to share this lovely series of photos by this talented gal. They make me want to be somewhere where autumn has actually begun it's descent on the world. Oh, and I also decided that when I am finished with school, I do not want to live in the city. I'm already getting tired of it, it just makes me lonely and I don't want to be lonely for the rest of my life. I would much rather live in the middle of nowhere (as long as I wasn't living there alone) or at least somewhere that doesn't make me feel like this. I want to see woods and fields and loveliness in autumn, not city-ness. But, I'll keep an open mind, perhaps this year autumn will go better than it did for me last year. I am counting on that. I'm counting on life being better than it was last year.

Ok, enough rambling.

Happiness

I am posting early today because I actually have a lot of plans... sort of... well, it's a lot for me. Anyway, these are more pictures from my recent film batch, they are evidence that I should not bring my film camera when it is dark out, I just end up taking really blurry pictures. However, I like these two a lot, so maybe it's a good thing I do stupid things. In case you are wondering (which I'm sure no one is), today my plans are to see Public Enimies and then perhaps go get tea, visit the farmer's market, and sit in the park with a friend of mine (who may become more than a friend in the future, my fingers are crossed). I will of course bring my camera along to share my lovely day with everyone. I hope that you have just as wonderful a day!

Film

I apologize for the large number of pictures today (in case you haven't noticed, I have a problem with over-apologizing). I finally got some film that I shot over the winter and spring in Portland, developed. However, I took them somewhere that I do not normally go to and a lot of them turned out with really strange colors, I am planning on getting those ones re-printed so they are what they should actually look like. Anyway, I hope you enjoy them, they definately give off a wintery-cold vibe, to me, I think it's the lighting, so they aren't something that really show anything about today, but I went without my camera today and I must say, I did enjoy it a little bit, but that was because I was busy floating down the river. Ok, that is enough for tonight, I should be heading to bed.

Stock

Just an old picture from one day when I woke up with the sun. It's probably the last photo I will take out my window here, I'm moving back to Bend next week and I cannot wait! I just need to get through this next week.