Why?

Why in the world do I always seem to fall in love with Frye's shoes? I was browsing around looking at random shoes in various internet locations, specifically hoping to find a smart pair of oxfords when I stumbled upon these. They seem perfect, they are exactly what I want. I just wish I had the money to spend on them, cause they're pricey.

In other news, I had a great weekend, I didn't make it out into the woods until Saturday and had to come back early on Sunday, but it was still great. I'll post some pictures tomorrow.

Little Pieces

I am anticipating my move back to Portland with excitement and dread. I am not looking forward to packing up my life again, and at the same time, I love moving into new spaces, making them beautiful and mine. And this time it will be even more fun because I know how much space I have to pack all of my random little things into and onto. I have this thing where I don't like to get rid of things... ever. In fact, there are still boxes sitting around my house that are full of all the stuff I am supposedly getting rid of, yet I keep taking things out of them to keep. Ok, I admit it... again... I am a packrat. But some of the little pieces of clutter I have make me so happy and are so beautiful, who wouldn't love them? The rest of the stuff... well that I keep just in case I need it for a project or something, or because I plan to make a project of some kind with them. I am planning on going on another camping trip tomorrow, I can't wait!

Mail

Dear Rachel,
Thank you for the lovely card. I love getting mail! And the maps and balloons, the card is perfect. You are so amazing, I wish you were in Portland when I was. I will be there again soon though (I move back September 19) I can't wait to see you again! I miss you and all of your adorableness, which is not an actual word, but should be.
Sydney

Don't you just love getting things in the mail? I do at least, and this is one of the most beautiful pieces of mail I have ever recieved, no, it IS the most beautiful. I wish I recieved mail more often, maybe I'll have to start sending mail to people while I'm in Portland, just for the fun of sending packages and letters.

Busy

I feel like I have been much busier than I actually have been. But, I suppose, I have been busy, just not in a very productive way at all... generally speaking. Mostly I spent the last five days or so (I'm too tired to actually count), celebrating my birthday. Which I wasn't even all that excited for. But it was nice, my mom's family came over for lunch on Sunday, then on Tuesday I went out to dinner with my mom and had a nice dinner with my family. On Wednesday I got my friends together for a picnic and croquet, which I felt was quite sucessful, then to finish it all off, on Thursday I drove, with Shawn, up to Portland and watched Built to Spill and The Flaming Lips, we then spent Friday wandering around Portland. I even got to see my dear friend Nicole! I don't think I could have asked for a better week. But I can tell that summer is coming to a close, my brother has started soccer practice, and I have begun thinking about school again. I keep on wishing I could just disappear into this summer like it is starting to disappear into autumn... but then I couldn't wear all my autumny clothes, and that would be a tragedy.


I have also decided this week that I am a little too interested in fashion, I feel slightly ridiculous about it.

Lost from Civilization

Oh my oh my! The camping trip I just took was amazing, we went to a lake that was pretty much in the middle of nowhere called Lake Tenas. It was gorgeous! And there was a great place to view the sunset too. I only wish I hadn't had to come back to civilization, I think I need to go out to the woods again before my summer is finished.

Disappearing Acts

I will most likely be away for a few days, esspecially as next week gets going. I have lots planned and lots to do, hopefully it will all work out. For now though, I am getting ready to take a much-needed break from society and camp out in the woods. It is going to be freezing, but I know that it is something I need to do, if only just to complete my summer. Have a good weekend, everyone (and possibly a good week, I don't know when I'll next have a chance to post anything).

Toast

I am itching to get into some autumn-worthy clothes. I think that because autumn is my favorite of all seasons I have, unwittingly based most of my wardrobe on autumn weather. It is frustrating that the weather has been cooler lately but not cool enough to pull out some boots, a light scarf, and a sweater. That is what I am dreaming of. And this post on Unruly Things today has got me itching to go and buy most of the Early Fall collection from Toast. Don't they just have lovely things? It's all full of patterns and stripes and boots and oxfords and trousers and cozy sweaters and buttons and jackets and trousers and leather bags and nice belts and yumminess. Or at least that all says yumminess to me, just add a few ruffles and I would be in heaven. Oh dear, I really need the weather to turn just a little bit colder in a couple of weeks, but not for this weekend, cold weather and camping would be disasterous, or just lots of fun minus some possible swimming. Probably the second one. And now I need to stop looking at yummy clothing and go to sleep, before the idea of toast starves me anymore. ( I actually have become literally hungry)

Meteorites

A few days ago when it was still fairly cold out, I decided to try and dress girly-ish. This is what I came up with, I guess sometimes I can be quite a tomboy and not even realize it.

I have to say, professional loiterers must have one of the hardest jobs ever. I would be so easily bored just sitting there and invading public spaces. Though that is kind of what I did for quite a while today, I just didn't stay in one place. Right now though, I'm not feeling all that great and am going to find something to snack on and go try and watch the meteor shower (which in case anyone is interested, is supposed to peak tomorrow and Thursday night). I can't believe how quickly this summer has gone.

Excitement

Earlier tonight I found out that I am going up to Portland in a little over a week to see The Flaming Lips at the Edgefield Amphitheatre. I am so excited, not only for the concert, but to be in Portland again, even for just a day. As much as I love Bend, and I will always love it. I also love being in the city. There is so much more excitement and things to just sit and watch there. And I get to see some friends that I haven't seen since June. Needless to say again, I am excited!

Also, in other news, I have most of this next week off and the weather is supposed to be heading back towards warmness, so hopefully I will be out and about doing things, and taking lots of pictures while I do them (I haven't been too good about taking photos lately, but I know I want to take more).

So, I hope that everyone else's week has gotten off to as grand of a start as mine.

Hooray! (I'm sorry... I had to do it, I'm excited... and apparently in love with that word)

Stars

I went and gazed at the stars tonight, it was the one time when I actually wished the moon wasn't so bright, it was too bright to let us see all the stars. Well the moon and all the light from Bend too.

Why can't every summer night be so perfect?

Weather

It seems that just as quickly as summer showed up, it has now left. It is a little nice not to be feeling the usual unbearable August heat, but with most of next week off of work... it would be nice if the weather would allow for some lake visiting that did not require sweaters or jackets.

Insomnia

It seems I can never sleep on the nights when I have to get up early the next morning, maybe it's just that it actually matters that I can't sleep on those days. Whatever the reason I will be quite exhausted tomorrow, esspecially if I can't get to sleep after this. Above you will find some of my personal favorites from my last batch of film. Pretty exciting, huh? So, I'm going to cut this short because I have to get up in four and a half hours. I just wish my head would stop going in circles, it's been at it all night, and I've already been on this train of thought so many times before, it just isn't fun anymore. Yet, it's still an unresolved and scary thought so it keeps popping in to say hello. I hope I'm making sense, I think I used entirely too many forms of description towards my thoughts just now.

Days

Days go by, one after the other, I never know what will happen as each one unfolds. It's always something interesting, or I think of it as interesting and exciting afterwards, most days. Some days though I wish I led a more exciting life, full of trips and adventures and exciting friends. But I think that I may already be leading that life I wish for on the boring days. Today for example, I did quite a few things, with the twelve hours I have now been up (yes, I got up at noon... my sleep habits are getting a bit ridiculous).

1. Re-organized photos on computer

2. Got film developed

3. Sent out birthday invitations (only 12 more days until my birthday, 13 until the party that is going to be amazing, it does not have a choice)

4. Looked through library books of photographs and took pictures of the pages with my favorite photos on them (that sounds so much more pathetically nerdy than I thought it would)

5. Helped my mom with the groceries

6. Helped clean and get ready for my family to go on a camping trip (I'm stuck here, working... yay? I'm kind of excited?)

7. Bought strawberries in the last ten minutes of the farmer's market (Holy goodness!)

8. Played a game of ultimate frisbee (and apparently was a little more aggressive than anyone thought I would be in my guarding technique)

9. Sat with some new friends around a fire and roasted marshmallows and ate s'mores (yum!)

10. Watched The Orphanage with Shawn (it was not as scary as everyone made it out to be, I really enjoyed it, actually)

That seems like quite a lot for twelve hours. At least to me it does. I can't imagine how people that are actually awake for the morning do it, they must be exhausted and actually able to sleep at night... weird. Oh, I think tomorrow I'll show you some of my film photos, they turned out much better this time (thank goodness it wasn't my camera).

Today

Today I feel like the summer weather is finally getting to me. It wasn't even all that warm out, I mean it was hot, but it's been warmer than it was today all week. I just want to be able to bundle myself up again, throw on some old beat up boots, or curl up in bed while I watch snow falling outside the window. I don't want to go back to Portland and school, I just want the weather to get cold again. I mean I do want to go back to Portland... it's mostly the school thing and all the uncertainties I feel when I think about that. Am I ever certain of anything?

Photo credits: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9

Perhaps this is all from my lack of sleep right now, though in the morning I will of had too much sleep. There is a bug flying around my room. I don't understand where it came from, it wasn't here just a minute ago.

Results

This is what has resulted from me staying up late and trying to create something I like. Which I was partly successful at. I just realized that I told Shawn today that I don't draw. Because I don't. Normally. And if I do they are not very good. I'm still a hypocrite, aren't I? Oh, well, I've gotten used to that. I think they look better in the pictures... which is a little sad... My favorite is by far the first one. Maybe I'll go to sleep now.

I've noticed that when I become very tired I either begin to ramble and use never-ending sentences, or, be short and to the point, like I was tonight, but now I'm getting rambly. Oh dear!

Late Nights

I was wandering through some old pictures and for some reason I really liked these three. They are all years old. But they are still somehow inspiring to me and I feel like they reflect something that I am trying to achieve in my photography. I don't know what that is.

I don't think I am going to sleep for a while tonight, though I have things to do tomorrow morning. I just want to make something... something I really like.

I wish...

This summer would last forever. I don't want to start thinking about going back to school or anything else. I'm happy just living each day seperately and not thinking about what is going to come in the future.